Harm OCD trying to bring me back down

Hi y'all! It's been a month or so since I have been on here and I have been doing much better with my Harm OCD. Unfortunately, as my hormones fluctuate and I have more free time on my hands, my mind gets the best of me. Over the last couple of days, my harm thoughts have come back strong and I was broken down in tears earlier. Then, in that moment it was like my OCD was trying to convince me that the only way to make it go away is to harm my family and myself. It made me question myself even more. I have been terrified for months now that I would harm my family. Now that I am feeling stronger, the OCD has me convinced that the only way out is to do the exact thing that I do NOT want to do. Has anyone else struggled with this? OCD is the worst.

Harm OCD

Username: Jesse M.Jesse M.

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

It sounds deeply familiar to me. It's so painful to think of harming people. The worst for me is when I feel angry at someone and harm OCD latches on to that and is like "well now you're angry so it must mean you do actually want to hurt them".

Username: Try2023Try2023

Date posted: 1y ago

Absolutely! I have had the same thoughts. The part that has me the most anxious right now is the "what if" I agree with the thought. I have never wanted to harm my family and have been called a "helicopter mom" trying to protect my girls. But now that I am having a hard OCD day, it is trying to convince me that I actually want to harm them to "protect" them from my harm OCD. It makes zero sense, but I find myself wondering what if.

Username: rbecksrbecks

Date posted: 1y ago

Yes, I've struggled with the same issues... OCD is a b*tch and knows how to get you. Don't believe those thoughts and urges. I'm also struggling with my hormones (pcos, endometriosis and pmdd) and the main thing, that helped me personally was looking after my protein intake (it should be higher than average) and ingesting enough essential amino acids. I feel like I've had less severe intrusive thoughts since changing my diet to a high protein diet (I recommend a good whey protein powder), I also didn't cut out carbs. Low impact strength training also works wonders and keeps you busy. Magnesium glycinate also helps me calm down and get some good night's sleep. Maybe it could help you as well, I wish you all the best!

Username: Try2023Try2023

Date posted: 1y ago

I definitely need to work on my protein intake. We are in the midst of purchasing a new home and selling our current home and I know I haven't been eating well. I appreciate the advice! I am doing my best to get outside in the fresh air and sunshine as well! Praying for you as you keep moving forward!

Username: rbecksrbecks

Date posted: 1y ago

@Try2023 Oh that's a big and exciting life change, which sadly can trigger OCD as well (I'm currently going through a big life change too, which is quite taxing). I hope everything goes smoothly for you and your family! And thank you!

Username: Alyssa1995Alyssa1995

Date posted: 1y ago

Harm OCD intrusive thoughts can take any shape or form. This is just another manifestation of the thought to keep it sticky. I’ve had a bad bout of Harm OCD today as well about my sister and my boyfriend (the two people I love most in this world). But I’m sitting with it and know that it’s just OCD knocking at the door to get my attention. Stay true to your values, be present, and engage with your family even more since OCD is probably going to try to isolate you from them. You’re strong, you can handle hard things. Sending good energy and healing ❤️

Username: Try2023Try2023

Date posted: 1y ago

Thank you so much for the kind words! OCD just knows exactly how to knock me off my feet. I often think, why can't these thoughts be towards people who are truly awful and not my family who I love so much? OCD just doesn't play by our rules. Praying for you as you struggle today. You CAN do this! I'm here if you ever need to talk.

Username: Alyssa1995Alyssa1995

Date posted: 1y ago

@Try2023 - I totally agree. Sometimes I like to refrain OCD's scare tactics by saying that it sheds light on our true values and morals. But thank you, and same to you! :)

Username: ivrecivrec

Date posted: 1y ago

It sounds like your harm ocd trying to really hold on. OCD wants to hurt us by going after what we value the most. You know who you are deep down inside. You can get through this.

Username: Kenzie Madison

Date posted: 2y ago

Those with Harm OCD

Hey guys. I’ve been dealing with Harm OCD for around 3 and 1/2 months now, and it’s been extremely difficult to experience. I’ve had OCD my whole life and some of my family members do as well, one of my cousins actually has the same main subtype as me, but he was diagnosed almost a year ago when I didn’t have it myself. I’ve been going to an OCD & Anxiety Treatment Center the past week and I’m really struggling with the exposures we do there, as well as the ones we do at home. I constantly feel like I’m judging myself and I genuinely feel worthless, like I’m a horrible person to have unwanted intrusive thoughts like these. I feel like it’s so difficult to stay mindful and to not judge any of the thoughts that surface. Those with Harm OCD, have any of you here gone from debilitating OCD to living fulfilling lives? If so, what was the process like for you, if you’d like to share? Thanks and I hope you’re all doing well, or are continuing to improve.

Username: Try2023

Date posted: 1y ago

OCD Fighting Back - Harm OCD

I am fairly new to the site, but have already been able to connect with a few of y'all that are struggling with some of the same things as I am. I have had OCD for years, but I never attributed my struggles to OCD, until I started down the path of harm OCD and the intrusive thoughts. Back in the beginning of December, I had a couple of intrusive thoughts come in about "what if" I harmed my husband and then one towards my youngest daughter. I let it get me so overwhelmed that I ended up in urgent care after passing out at my in-laws due to dehydration and lack of sleep. I finally found a therapist who informed me that I had OCD and that I hadn't just suddenly become a psychopath. But, even knowing that it is OCD, there has always been that doubt, as I am sure all of you have experience with. I am working on accepting the thoughts as just thoughts and moving on with my day. I have been working on not ruminating and just telling the thoughts, "maybe, maybe not." The problem is, every day, it is like the OCD is trying to convince me why I might harm my family. Every little thing that irritates me, my brain says, "See..you're getting frustrated with your kids. It makes sense that you would hurt them." On and on it goes and then I get the thought, maybe this is what I want. Maybe I am just an angry person. Maybe I have just finally had enough. I hate the "I" statements because I have never wanted to harm anyone, let alone my babies or my hubby. But, OCD tells me that I do. Has anyone else struggled with this? I have never wanted to harm anyone. I have always tried to protect my babies and do everything I can to protect my marriage as well. I just hate that OCD seems to be trying to convince me that it's not just thoughts, but that I actually want these things.

Harm OCD

Username: mslove

Date posted: 1y ago

Harm ocd

Hello everyone my journey with harm ocd has been so distressing and can’t even describe how lost and lonely I feel. I also had a moment yesterday where I had another moment of harm ocd and my thoughts were saying “yes just do it”. Brought me to tears. Has anyone ever experienced something like this?

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