Fear of delusions/ SchizOCD

Disclaimer, I am diagnosed with OCD, GAD, PTSD, ADHD, Panic Disorder and hypochondria. I’ve been in the midst of what I hope and pray is just an extremely debilitating health ocd theme for about 4 months now, where I’ve basically convinced myself I am in the midst of psychosis or developing schizophrenia or a related disorder. I obsess over it day and night to the point where I can’t even function hardly. Constantly researching symptoms and seeking reassurance. Ive been having this weird symptom where my ear canal will randomly feel this pressure/ticklish sensation and I start to become hyperaware of the hole in my ear, and I get this weird tense feeling almost like I’m expecting someone to stick their finger in my ear or expecting something to go inside of it, this weird sensation almost makes me want to cover my ear but I never do. But when I get this weird ear feeling I get absolutely ridiculous crazy thoughts like “what if a demon is trying to get inside your ear” and I’m like WTF why would I even think of that, I don’t even believe in demons or religious stuff like that to begin with. I recognize that the thought is nonsense and FAR out of the realm of reality and makes zero sense.The fact that I would even have a thought like that to begin with scares the f**k out of me! I have never ever had thoughts like this before. YET now whenever I get that weird sensation in my ear I still get intense anxiety, why? Why do I still get such crippling fear from this ear sensation even if I don’t believe the thoughts? Why would my brain even come up with a thought like that in the first place? I’m so terrified of schizophrenia and psychosis, I don’t want to lose my mind ): I have a wife and so many dreams. I’m so scared of losing it. Has someone ever experienced anything remotely similar to this? I know this is very far fetched.

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

Hey! I have a fear of having schizophrenia also. I am constantly thinking about it. It also makes me so scared for the future. I’m glad to know I’m not the only one scared of this either. Wishing you the best.

Username: ilovestevienicksilovestevien...

Date posted: 1y ago

Have the same thing, and I totally sympathize with you. I think it’s worth approaching those illnesses with a bit of grace. People with schizophrenia live pretty comfortable lives with right medications, and psychosis isn’t the end of the world. There multiple treatments for multiple illnesses out there. (The joy of medicine and therapy!) Also, this post feels like you’re seeking reassurance, we know better than to let OCD start with trap doors, so let’s sit with that feeling of anxiety and uncertainty. Feel it through your body, and stretch your limbs and muscles. And remember to breathe. I’m sorry if this isn’t what you wanted to hear, but the need for certainty will pass. You will be okay, regardless of the outcome.

Username: ~Zaf~~Zaf~

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

First of all, you are not alone. And rest assured there are several recorded cases of people manifesting real schizophrenic like symptoms that dissipated once they got better. The mind is extremely powerful and unfortunately has the power to effect our reality if we get into a bad headspace. The fact that you feel anxiety and recognise the odd nature of these thoughts should be telling evidence for yourself about the likely nature of these feelings. You have such a strong fear of loss, loss of dreams, family, control and future which is feeding the OCD. And it may sound impossible but what you need to do is start to chip away at the fear you feel and start putting the OCD on a diet. This is essentially the ERP model, where you say things like "I may become schizophrenic". You have to accept that there are no certainties in life, if you developed schizophrenia there is literally nothing you could have done to change that, so why torture yourself all day everyday? You would get treatment, your family would still love you and you would be OK. However, I will reiterate that your symptoms don't sound like schizophrenia. It sounds like a mix of obsessional thinking and intrusive thoughts, both being fed by anxiety. I experience this exact type of OCD and it sucks. I don't know if this app has private messaging but feel free to reach out if you need.

Username: mrselfdestruct1994mrselfdestru...

Date posted: 1y ago

@~Zaf~ Bless you man. Seriously, thank you very much. That’s some of the most valuable advice I’ve ever received since I started going through this. I appreciate you taking the time to even type that all out for me.

Username: O

Date posted: 6y ago

Does anyone suffer from Schiz OCD. Where you obsess about possibly being schizo

Username: e.ileenm

Date posted: 2y ago

Schizophrenia OCD or fear of going crazy

Anybody struggle with thinking you have schizophrenia or are slowly developing it? Mine just kinda popped up out of the blue today. Idk why I have a sudden feeling that I might hear or see something that nobody else will hear or see. I just feel like I’m stuck in my own head and I might act out of impulse. It’s making me feel anxious, uncomfortable, and worried that something might be wrong with me. I even feel like covering my ears so I can calm myself down with some piece and quiet. Please tell me someone else knows what I’m talking about

Username: Anonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

OCD Relapse ( Schiz/Psychosis OCD )

It’s amazing how powerful OCD is, I went through the worst Mental Health experience of my entire life last year. I thought my life was over, that I was insane, and was convinced 100% I had schizophrenia. My brain was mimicking every symptom. It was terrifying. After starting OCD therapy and ERP. My life changed forever. I was actually mental stable for once. I felt happy and controlled for once. Now Schiz OCD is back , and it seems worse then before. I can’t sleep, eat, work, or even socialize. I constantly feel insane. My two biggest themes are Harm OCD and Schiz OCD. And these themes work together to cause me constant anxiety. It’s hell. I can’t even think straight. I’m currently dealing with DP/DR, command thoughts/voice, internal voices/thoughts that I can make not sound like me or my inner monologue, “What if” delusional thoughts,hyperviligance,checking if I hear or see anything externally(auditory and visual hallucinations) and many more. I question my insight constantly. I even went to the hospital the other day to get evaluated and make sure I don’t have psychosis. Everything I fear the most seems to be coming true. Constantly asking my parents and therapist/professionals if I have schizophrenia. Constantly looking for reassurance. Feels as if I’m thinking my way into psychosis and schizophrenia. OCD knows exactly what you fear and will try to one up you on anything. OCD will CONVINCE you everything that’s happening to you is true , all your biggest fears. OCD is trying to find new things to keep you stuck and hold you in fear. This experience has been horrible and I am convinced I’m going insane. But I’ve been through this once and I’m going to get through this again. STAY STRONG. Reach out to professionals, Resist compulsions, step into the fear, and relax a little bit. You’re not alone.

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