What is with the massive anxiety when waking up

It is the worst. The absolute worst. The swirling anxiety in my belly the moment my eyes open, the racing thoughts, the nausea, the chaos of fear that runs through me from adrenaline rushes. It’s miserable. I have come to believe that as soon as I realize Im awake, Im afraid for what lies ahead of me as far as ocd & intrusive thoughts go. What kind of day will I have today? What new thoughts will pop up, etc., etc. I just started taking an anti anxiety med last week and it has helped to slow it down. I take it around 10 each night, asleep by 10:30/10:45 and it has been getting me through the night. The mornings havent been filled with fear. The anxiety is still there, but more tolerable. At least now Im not hunched over holding my belly, pacing the floor, and trying not to barf. Long story short, I completely get you and I swore up & down I was never ever going to get better. Im not better yet, but I do believe my Lexapro & anti anxiety med is helping me manage. Looking forward to the future when this is all a thing of the past. Best of luck to you, and heres to a morning full of peace, calm, and relaxation!

I know, right?!

I was just about to post about this! It used to be that sleeping was my safe haven. And it would linger for at least a few hours into the beginning of my day until the intrusive thoughts would pop back in. But not anymore. The second I wake up the intrusive thoughts start coming and immediately the panic washes over me. It’s so awful. I’m trying to think of the thoughts as just that, thoughts, and that I don’t have to give meaning to them. It’s helped, but I’m not back to “normal” yet.