i feel like this is going to sound bad

whenever i have harm ocd thoughts abt hurting my cat, normally i get really scared and i used to avoid being close to him or near him when those thoughts were there, but recently as ive been trying to work through them i find that im not scared. not only that though, whenever i have my hands near any places where my mind is telling me i could take advantage of, seeing that my cat is still happy and not afraid, reassures me that i havent ever acted in any way similar to what i think.. i find it comforting but i feel like its disgusting and fucked up of me to continue interacting with my cat and to be in any position where i could hurt him if those thoughts are there it feels like i enjoy the thoughts.. but i definitely dont! i just enjoy being able to still love him 😞 is this weird? i feel even worse for being concerned abt it

Harm OCD

Username: AnnonnAnnonn

Date posted: 39w ago

I deal with the same thing & my cat is my baby and my entire world. When those thoughts pop into my head I say “nope nope nope” or something and force myself to think of something else. Sometimes I’ll even tell my cat “I would never hurt you” and replace those thoughts with a kiss on her head.

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 39w ago

@Annonn i hope you get through these thoughts too ❤️❤️ thank you for sharing

Username: KhloehasOCDKhloehasOCD

Date posted: 39w ago

Definitely not weird at all! Sometimes, when we work on our ocd thoughts and get them under control, especially in situations like yours, your brain can tell you “oh but what if you enjoy the thoughts etc” which is also just another way your ocd is creeping in.

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 39w ago

@KhloehasOCD im glad this isnt a strange occurrence, thank you!! 🫶🫶

Username: inth3667inth3667

Date posted: 39w ago

Maybe those thoughts that suggest you would ‘enjoy’ it can sense you are capable of fighting off anything that would make you hurt your cat, so those thoughts are trying to find another way to hurt you

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 39w ago

@inth3667 this makes sense, someone else said something similar as well, thank you 🫶

Username: Yeye123

Date posted: 1y ago

Harm ocd?? Past things.

I wanna cry, when I was a kid,like a toddler. 4-6 maybe. I used to do horrible things to my cat, I choked it twice.my bdother did too if I remember right, but still. Ik this isn’t false memory. I’m 100% sure I ddi this as a kid. But now looking back at it I’m like wtf??? But I’m scared because whenever I see animals hurt now or accidentally hurt my animal that thing pops up in my head again and I feel weird. I can’t explain the feeling but it bothers me so bad. I want to cry. I don’t like this, i rlly feel like I’m a bad person. Idek if this is ocd. What if I genuinely have mental problems???

Username: blackitty27

Date posted: 35w ago

Not again...

I've been doing so much better these past 2 weeks, I actually thought I was beginning o recover... However a few minutes ago I had a horrific thought about one of my cats, she was lying next o me on the bed with her belly up and I was stroking her, I was actually comfortable being by her and was petting her and kissing her and she looked so cute when suddenly my eyes drifted to the lower part of her belly and these horrific thought popped up saying: "I wamt to r*p3 my cat " I also got a horrible intrusive image, and I was absolutely disgusted but felt little to no anxiety to the thought which is really scary. I had to get away from her out of fear of hurting her and now I feel like i'm spiraling and falling back down into the deep dark hole I was at. I was feeling good today (i haven't felt like this in almost a year) and now I can be with my cats normally, comparing when my harm OCD was at it's peak I couln't even be near them. So why is this happening again, and why did I look at my cat's pr*vate parts and felt I did it purpose w bad intentions????!! I don't want to hurt my kitty 😭

Username: dee012

Date posted: 30w ago

Pet ocd

was hugging my cat and she got annoyed and meowed and i got sad and thought how could anyone hurt any animals then i start getting thoughts like u want to hurt one u want to really hurt one even ur own cats and it made me scared but i have little anxiety it made me sad tho. when i was little i had kicked my dog and that came up in my memories and now im scared i will hurt my pets. when i was younger i was weird and i have memories spaced out of me doing weird/bad stuff that i would never do now but it makes my ocd worse. I hate this :(

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