So one of my themes is the fear of going crazy. When it was so bad I was having thoughts all day that everyone knew that I was going crazy and they were talking about it and just not being honest with me. Has anyone experienced this? Is it just ocd?
The fear of "going crazy" is a common one. I feel your pain! I think this is where labels like OCD can be a little counterproductive, because whether or not this "is OCD" is kind of irrelevant. OCD merely describes a state of mind in which you experience a cycle of obsessions and compulsions so often that it significantly affects your daily life. The content of the obsessions is irrelevant. There are common "themes" that people obsess about, but the only thing that matters is that they are intrusive thoughts, and they feed the obsession/compulsion cycle. The thing that makes it OCD is the frequency of the thoughts and the intensity of the anxiety. So personally I would take "OCD" out of the picture entirely, and just recognize what you're experiencing as intrusive thoughts. Nothing more, nothing less. Hope that helps.
How would you define “crazy”? is experiencing obsessive compulsions crazy, or do you worry your sense of reality is literally delusional ? I’m only asking because maybe being more specific with yourself about what this judgment is could help you accept it untrue, or as true and treatable. I can’t know if your intrusive worries about others opinions are accurate or just paranoia. But even in the worst case if someone else is thinking you seem “crazy” … maybe that’s okay? I worry about how others might misunderstand or judge me all the time. And sometimes they actually do! But I can survive being judged by someone. If their opinion practically matters enough to affect my life, then we can address the problem when necessary. But maybe relief can be found in acceptance that we can’t know nor control what anyone else’s impressions and judgments of us might be. Just do the best you can to be a good person in your actions and take pride in that, no matter what anyone might be thinking.
Yes, and they didn’t notice when I got better. Even when they hurt me now, they blame it all on my psyche that I’m hurt and not on their behavior.
I guess I worry about becoming delusional. I'm pretty constantly checking to see if my thoughts are "normal". so stupid. Logically I know everyone gets weird thoughts every day....
Anybody struggle with thinking you have schizophrenia or are slowly developing it? Mine just kinda popped up out of the blue today. Idk why I have a sudden feeling that I might hear or see something that nobody else will hear or see. I just feel like I’m stuck in my own head and I might act out of impulse. It’s making me feel anxious, uncomfortable, and worried that something might be wrong with me. I even feel like covering my ears so I can calm myself down with some piece and quiet. Please tell me someone else knows what I’m talking about
Woke up this morning immediately looking for the thoughts that I’ve been having even though i don’t want to think about them. I feel like i ended up bringing them upon myself and then i had a super gruesome thought and have been worrying about it all morning. Is it possible to bring thoughts upon yourself? Is it ocd or is it just me? I’m just so scared of going “crazy” that i keep looking for thoughts deciding if it’s me or not if you know what i mean. It’s such a scary feeling When you feel like you don’t know who you are 😭 i literally am just petrified of completely losing sense of who i am and doing something bad and being locked away forever. Is it possible to just turn bad? Does anybody know what i mean by that? Like you secretly have a double ego and completely turn into somebody different? Does anyone else experience this? Is it ocd? I’m so scared i feel like i can never catch a break.
Anyone else struggle with this theme? I feel like I’m going crazy Anyone give me any advice?
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