I cannot tell if this is ocd or if I've realized that this relationship isn't right for me and won't last or I don't want to be in it anymore. I feel so confused or just sad and anxious. What if I'm not in love anymore
Sometimes ocd can trick you into believing you fell out of love! Love is a choice. Do you feel like it’s an urgent matter somthing that needs to be solved right away? I’ve felt that before and actually almost left my partner but then I realized that when anxiety wasn’t around I knew I loved my partner and if the thought of breaking up with your partner makes you really sad and really anxious then I would maybe wait until you feel like you are at a more calm place and wouldn’t make any rash decisions. Everyone’s experience is different. If you fall out of love with someone it will feel sad but it shouldn’t give you anxiety or make you more stressed, that shows somthing else is going on?
I don't feel as anxious as I did, but am still having the thoughts of "this relationship might have run it course and we're just hold on" or "I've fallen out of love or am getting the courage to breakup" and I feel guilty whenever we say I love you. I don't know if I feel confused or just trying to avoid the truth in some way.
Same 😭😭
"What if" is THE OCD question. If you're dealing with "What if", likely you are dealing with OCD. These are common fears in relationship OCD I have found. Stepping back objectively and evaluating your own safety and potential abuse or manipulation is one thing. If there are clear signs of that (which I have been dealing with in my past relationship) best to identify them and look at them empirically. But if you are concerned with not being in love, that seems very analytical like OCD. I often feel like I am not forgiven, even if I have been. I feel like its the same for love. You can still love someone even if you don't feel like you do. As Jean Val Jean from "Les Miserables" says, "to love is to act," and love is more than a feeling. I certainly don't feel warm and fuzzy feelings for my mom all the time, just as a 'for instance', but it doesn't mean I don't love her. Feelings can be deceptive, but sometimes it is the choice to love and the understanding and appreciation of someone's value that makes the action of love exist in longevity, feelings aside.
I don’t have any advice I just want you to know you re not alone! I deal with the same thoughts and worries with my relationship and we have been together for 20years.
has it ever felt like you actually wanted to breakup? I had the thought and it didnt cause me anxiety but idk if that means that I'm falling out of love or that this relationship isn't right for me anymore.
No ‘what ifs’ anymore- just direct statements sometimes ‘you don’t love him’ sometimes ‘I don’t want to be with him’. I can’t see any hope of feeling better- I don’t even know if this is OCD. This isn’t how love is supposed to feel- how do I know if my partner just isn’t the one? I did have really intense anxiety but could still feel that love and desire to be with my SO but now- it seems to be fading away. No more anxiety, intrusive thoughts feel a bit muddled up rather than loud, aggressive, specific thoughts. Help :(
My relationship OCD has been severe lately and with seemingly no trigger to cause this flare up. I am constantly anxious, doubtful and panicked that I don't love my partner, overanalyzing whether or not I'm attracted to him, and ruminating on the numbness I feel when we are together. Every idea I can come up with to test and check to see if there's that love feeling, that attraction or interest/excitement in doing things together feels invalid, like it won't work. I get triggered further when my partner asks me if I'm okay, and that wave of panic comes back. I can't tell if this is OCD, or if it's my gut telling me it's not a relationship I should stay in. We've been together for five years, I'm not in OCD therapy, and I've been off meds for four months now.
Has anyone gotten to the point with ROCD whether you question if the relationship is actually want you want anymore ? I can’t tell if this feeling/thought is OCD anymore or if I genuinely need to leave. I really don’t want to feel this way but I don’t know if wanting to be with my partner or wanting to love him is enough. I’ve had all the extreme anxiety before but no longer. It just feels off, numb like something is missing that I can’t put my finger on. My mind is saying that maybe it just is my time to leave and move on. I can’t figure out if this is just another OCD tactic or true 🤷🏻♀️
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