I’m not sure if I have ocd but I feel like I do

I’m a 13 year old girl and I think I have ocd. But im not sure. At around maybe 8 or 9, I remember giving signs, like touching things 5 times or 10 times, and other things similar to that. I’m now 13, and I feel like lately it’s gotten worse over the last year or so maybe. Here’s a list of my compulsions. I stay up until 8:00 AM or 9:00 AM counting to 5 because if I don’t God will send me to hell and I need to ask for Gods forgiveness. I love God In The Name Of Jesus Christ Amen At night before going to bed, I need to g and fix my bed at 7:50 AM and only :50 because if I went to bed at 56 it’s the devils number and I love God In The Name Of Jesus Christ Amen When scrolling, I need to scroll 5 or 10 times Before going to bed, I need to shake my sheets 5 times, shake my pillows 5 times and shake my blanket 5 times. And there’s way more regarding around do this or you’ll go to hell, it’s really exhausting. My parents noticed the way I act but they just get mad at me for it, I just really want to get help.

Username: Wolfram Wolfram

Date posted: 37w ago

Have you talked to them openly behind the thought process like you have here? Sometimes parents and other people don't understand this stuff too well, either because they genuinely don't, or don't want to because it's difficult for them too on some unknown level. Best advice I can think of is maybe taking the leap to open up to a teacher at school, maybe a school counsellor? They might be able to point you in the right direction or help convince your parents to get you therapy. Sorry for being blunt in some areas. I hope this helps. Any questions, ask. Most of the time someone will answer on here

Username: katee.evans29katee.evans29

Date posted: 37w ago

@Wolfram I’ve never talked to them about it but they noticed my compulsions sometimes and they would only get mad and tell me to stop and say that it’s stupid soooo im kind of scared to tell them and then like what if im fine and i dont rly have ocd but something is wrong

Username: Wolfram Wolfram

Date posted: 37w ago

@katee.evans29 Being scared to open up about it us natural. I was scared to talk about mine when I was a little older than you. I didn't even know it was ocd until I was 33. You could try and talk about it, but maybe not ambush them with it. Ask one or both of them for a chat at a specific day/ time ( schedule it in). That way they can give the conversation undivided attention

Username: Wolfram Wolfram

Date posted: 37w ago

Just a quick mention too. I wouldn't share personal info on here like social media and stuff. Keep yourself sade as I don't see many people as young as yourself on here

Username: katee.evans29katee.evans29

Date posted: 37w ago

@Wolfram God’s got me In The Name Of Jesus Christ Amen thank you tho

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 37w ago

It's very common in OCD to go "but what if I don't really have OCD?" Learning more about OCD from books or websites sounds like a great idea. An OCD therapist could help as well, if you can get one via your parents/doctor/school counselor. You might not have to tell your parents everything about the compulsions to do that - maybe something general about thinking you have OCD or feeling anxious or having trouble sleeping?

Username: WillyNileWillyNile

Date posted: 37w ago

hey, i can see how tough things are for you right now, especially with feeling like you have to follow these compulsions to avoid such scary outcomes. it's really brave of you to share what you're going through, especially at 13. i'm sorry to hear your parents aren't offering the support you need. 😔 have you heard about "unstuck"? it's an ai-powered therapy tool specifically for ocd (unstuckmyOCD.com). it's been a game changer for me this past month, and i think it could help you too. another member here recommended it to me, and i really wish i'd known about it sooner!

Username: Andrewspriggs

Date posted: 4y ago

I've struggled with anxiety, depression, and insomnia since I was a young teen and am currently struggling with what seems like scrupulosity (for the past few months I've been fighting with thoughts and feelings that I'm not saved or not good enough to be a Christian and it keeps me up all night half the time). I desperately want help but I'm afraid that I'm just seeking a diagnosis to blame my shortcomings on something other than myself or that going to a therapist would prove that I can't trust in God and go to him first. And the truth is I truly haven't been a good christian and there are many sins I still haven't totally faced and overcome yet and I'm not sure if I ever will be able to. I just don't know how I KNOW if I'm really the problem or if it is OCD. And I'm not looking for reassurance but maybe I am? I just don't know... if it is OCD it also feels like my "obsessions" are constantly morphing and changing and I can't keep up with them. Like I'll go from having existential thoughts to questioning my belief in God to feeling like I'm gonna turn into a creep or lose my mind or turn evil in some way. I'm just so exhausted and need help. I want to be able to turn to Jesus for help but I don't always know how to... I have faith that things will eventually turn out OK but then as soon as a feel secure in that the anxiety and doubt comes back. And even as I'm typing this I'm having thoughts like "its not that bad you just need to toughen up and be patient" and I know that's true but I just feel so alone and like I can't talk to anyone about this and if I do it'll all prove to be true. And as I write this I wonder if I made up all of these thoughts and feelings because I read online and on here about OCD and I'm trying to fit myself into it as an excuse to avoid my real problems... which might just be perfectly true but even if it is I don't know how to fix those problems??? I just want to get out of this loop and be a better person. I don't know if posting this will help. Maybe its even a compulsion in itself. I just want to understand... how do I know if its OCD or if I'm being convicted? Or both?

Religion & Spirituality OCD

Username: KAD.98

Date posted: 2y ago

Weird compulsion.

Okay this is going to sound VERY weird. But please it’s effecting my health and I need ways to stop this compulsion before it gets really bad. Btw I’ve had this compulsion since I was about 8 or 9 years old (I’m 24). Every night I have 2 prayers I repeat for almost 20 mins. One prayer in particular is praying for my health, my puppies health, and my boyfriends health. Before I pray for my health I pray really really really hard by applying pressure to my head and then I continue my little prayer and pray for my lungs, my stomach, breasts, butt, skin, etc while I touch each body part. Then I put pressure to my head and pray for my teeth. Then I put pressure to my head and pray for my eyes. And then I pray really really really hard and put pressure to my head and pray for my puppy and boyfriend. It’s gotten so bad I get a headache by the end of prayer and it’s hell if I keep messing up and have to completely restart my prayer. I do this EVERY night. EVERY night for almost more than a decade and my prayers have only gotten longer and added more compulsions to it. Please please help. It’s getting irritating and I’m dreading every night when I have to pray!!!! 😫😫😫 please don’t judge idk why I do this I just need to to make sure my prayer is the way I need it. I guess I have this compulsion where I feel the need for God to understand this prayer is really important to me so I’m showing him by inflicting pain on myself. Idk I’m weird and have weird habits and compulsions related to OCD. Just please help. 🤦🏻‍♀️🥲 I also am so embarrassed I haven’t told anyone this my entire life until I was just recently diagnosed with severe OCD, I thought it was normal. I’m embarrassed to do this in front of my boyfriend (I don’t want him watching me in the corner doing my little ritualistic prayer and touching my body like a crazy person)

Username: Anonymous 99

Date posted: 2y ago

Christians with OCD

Hi friends, To my fellow christian’s who struggle with OCD. Can you share what you notice to be compulsions for you mentally/physically when it comes to faith? I’m struggling to differentiate what is me and my faith and what is me and the OCD. I don’t have a therapist so just would love some advice. EXAMPLES Iv noticed in myself I think are apart of the OCD: - obsessing over reading the Bible first thing, needing to keep my Bible streak and feeling guilty if I don’t -repeating certain prayers that I think I need to pray to be safe -mentally checking that I still feel connected to God throughout the day

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