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Username: Anonymous 567

Date posted: 33w ago

Any advice?

So I’ve been in a pretty rough spiral/ocd spike for about a month now. I used to have this theme of being severely mentally ill or schizophrenic or psychotic and it went away for like 6 months and now it’s back full force. I have never hallucinated but I have this intense fear of what if I do. So with this theme I have these delusional thoughts that are just bizarre and I know how delusional they are but they feel so real and scary like I believe them. My body reacts by my stomach feeling uneasy and I’ll get a chill and just feel like I’m gonna be sick. Sometimes it doesn’t even have to be a thought per say.. it can just be a weird sensation or feeling and then I’ll become extremely anxious and borderline feel like I could panic. I can usually talk myself down from a full blown panic attack and but it’s just so distressing and I’m wondering if anyone else goes through this? I think it stems from a core fear of losing my family, ending up institutionalized away from my family and my family being devastated and judging me bc I “went crazy” please if anyone else can relate I’d appreciate any advice.

Username: Nattie90Nattie90

Date posted: 33w ago

I’m going through this right now. It is so scary and I keep thinking my brain is going to tell me to do something I don’t want to because I’ve gone ‘crazy’. I get the same exact chill. It starts in my chest and goes through my entire body, then comes the nausea. I was literally reading your post and had to check 3x that I didn’t actually post this because I’ve never had anyone who understood this.

Username: LoranqadriLoranqadri

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 33w ago

I can relate to the last part as I am also afraid of therapists and feel that I manage better without them..

Username: Hailey4183Hailey4183

Date posted: 33w ago

You’re not alone at all! This is a common theme of mine. I worked with my therapist and wrote the word psychosis at least 100 times to show that thoughts and words don’t have the power to make something happen. Just because you think what if I become schizophrenic or psychotic won’t change your physical brain chemistry. I hope that helps ❤️

Username: Lilly2442!Lilly2442!

Date posted: 33w ago

Wow this is my theme right now. I have a fear of losing control/ going into schizophrenia. This theme is what’s actually causing my panic attacks and why I downloaded this app in the first place. You mentioned you have a intense fear or hearing things and that’s exactly mine!! I have a fear of hearing things which causes me to be so hyper aware of what I hear and question if it’s real or not. I’ve had this fear for 11months and it’s still here:( when I have a panic attack that’s when these thoughts of “going in schizo” feel more real just because I’m already in a panic state.

Username: Lilly2442!Lilly2442!

Date posted: 33w ago

I understand exactly how you feel because I am going through it. If you don’t mind me asking how were you able to get over it the first time & what caused it to come back around again?

Username: Anonymous 567Anonymous 567

Date posted: 33w ago

@Lilly2442! So the first time I went through it I had no idea what I was experiencing was ocd so I went to a psychiatrist and was diagnosed with ocd and that gave me a hugeeeee sense of relief and peace. To know I wasn’t actually crazy. So that reassurance made me feel so much better than I pretty much disregarded the whole theme. Then my harm theme amped up. Especially after I had my son in 2022. It was all harm theme. So I got a therapist on this app and was told again that it’s ocd which gave me another huge sense of relief and peace AGAIN and I was so happy and able to live life 80% happy and not living in my head. Then recently the whole psychotic/schizophrenia theme came back strong as ever. I’m not really sure what triggered it to come back. But I’ve never properly done erp and I believe what made me better was just the reassurance from a professional. But as we know, reassurance doesn’t work long term for ocd and I think that’s my problem. I need to put in the actual work and stop seeking reassurance and trust that I was diagnosed correctly. It’s just easier said than done

Username: Lilly2442!Lilly2442!

Date posted: 33w ago

@Anonymous 12t I had harm ocd also which turned into schizophrenia ocd. I’ve been told by 4 psychiatrist and a ocd specialist what I’m experiencing is OCD/Anxiety but yet I still can’t believe it. It’s so hard to just accept this as anxiety when the thoughts and feeling feel more then anxiety:(

Username: Lilly2442!Lilly2442!

Date posted: 33w ago

If you need anyone to talk to about this theme feel free to message me

Username: Anonymous 567Anonymous 567

Date posted: 33w ago

@Lilly2442! Shoot me a text! 4435150628

Username: Lilly2442!Lilly2442!

Date posted: 26w ago

@Anonymous 567 How are you doing now with this theme??

Username: Nattie90Nattie90

Date posted: 33w ago

I would love to chat with you if you’re open to it!

Username: Anonymous 567Anonymous 567

Date posted: 33w ago

@Nattie90 Of course!!

Username: Nattie90Nattie90

Date posted: 33w ago

@Anonymous 12t What’s the best way to chat for you?

Username: Anonymous 567Anonymous 567

Date posted: 33w ago

@Nattie90 You can txt me 4435150628

Username: j

Date posted: 3y ago

I don’t normally make posts like this but if anyone can relate or has advice so I don’t feel so alone I would appreciate it! I feel like crying and I’m so anxious. So I’ve been dealing with an ocd flare up since February. It started out as contamination and harm after I had a really bad experience on a edible. The contamination mostly centered around the fear of someone accidentally giving me an edible to someone putting it in my food or water. Then it went from there to my Brian going you know what’s worse than edibles? LSD. So then I obsessed over that and it’s been like that on and off. I’ve had an extremely hard time with it it’s been one of the worst themes I ever had. I don’t eat certain things. Especially sweets. I avoid them. I avoid taking medication Bc I’m scared. I limit myself. I’m horrible about opening water bottles and if it doesn’t open just right I won’t drink out of it. I know it’s crazy I know it’s untrue but the panic I feel traces back to that night. I don’t ever want to feel that out of control again it scared me so bad I got diagnosed with ptsd (to be fair I had a lot of unresolved trauma that caused my glass to overfill) well, I’ve been going to EMDR therapy it’s got my ptsd under control but the ocd is louder. My ocd is clawing to stay alive. I’ve started to have intrusive thoughts now about my boyfriend might slip something into my water even though ITS NOT TRUE. So then I panic because the thoughts are so irrational that I get scared like why would I ever think that about him???? But the intrusive thoughts are so jarring and I don’t want my ocd to focus on him now! I need advice! I’ve been prescribed pristiq but haven’t taken it Bc you guessed it.,.. I’m scared to! I can’t go on like this! The thoughts are so irrational it scares me even though the rational side of me knows it’s not true but I guess that’s ocd. We get scared of the thoughts even though we know it’s not true and I know it’s my brain trying to keep the ocd going. I know therapy must be working otherwise my theme subjects wouldn’t have changed so fast. I’m so tired of this.

Username: Misstama65

Date posted: 23w ago

Is this ocd?

So one of my themes is the fear of going crazy. When it was so bad I was having thoughts all day that everyone knew that I was going crazy and they were talking about it and just not being honest with me. Has anyone experienced this? Is it just ocd?

Username: gracexocd

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 22w ago

Spiraling in my health fears.

Hey all. Coming on here just to rant really. Any advice or similar experiences would be great to hear. Trying not to ask for reassurance at all. My OCD has always been health related. It’s always been an extreme health fear of some sort. I had a fear of schizophrenia after a severe panic attack that gave me months of Dpdr. Kind of got over that w the help of my ocd therepist. Then followed visual snow because of floaters and probably pretty normal visual disturbances normal people have. I had on and off anxiety but nothing as bad as that was. Now I had another bad anxiety attack at work two days ago and my thoughts and obsessions have been at an all time high. I can NOT seem to shake this. I felt extremely dizzy during my panic attack (it was brought on by taking antibiotic on an empty stomach and almost fainting) and now I’ve done hours of googling symptom checking and hyperfixating on a new disease cause Alice in wonderland syndrome and vertigo. I will stare at things to make sure they aren’t getting bigger or smaller around me. I feel dizzy when turning my head to fast or looking around to fast. It’s crazy how these thoughts make you genuinely feel the symptoms you are fearful of. I go on my birthday vacation in a week and I just don’t want this to ruin it. It’s like a fine line in my mind between me being like (this is JUST your ocd thoughts and no you might actually have this because you’re body is showing symptoms) I am repeating mantras like this is just your ocd. Just your intrusive thoughts. I’m trying to have my mind else where like doing house cleaning and duties. I am planning on going to the gym. I want the reassurance that I don’t have these diseases soooo bad. But I know that willl only feed into the monster of OCD. How have my fellow ocd warriors conquered these moments ????

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